“For the first time in about two weeks, I feel awake”
February 17th, 2008 at 12:48am
I said that, possibly with the words in a different order, about six hours ago. I still feel awake. Perhaps I can finally write some blog posts, write those editorials that have been circling my head at inopportune moments for the last week, finish that site maintenance I started half a week ago, and finally feel like I’m achieving something.
There are few things more depressing than having about a dozen things you want to do, only to find that you barely have the energy, patience, concentration or well-being to put up with the things that have to happen before that…and then discover that no matter how utterly exhausted you may be, sleep can not come in solid blocks, and that half hour you waste trying to get back to sleep every couple of hours would have been so much easier to put up with had you either been asleep or been able to find the energy to do something constructive.
And then there’s the times where you don’t feel well, you’re tired but can’t sleep, have something to do but can’t find the energy or motivation to do it, so waste time instead, and then feel worse a few hours later, and then collapse out of exhaustion, sleep for about twelve hours straight, wake up feeling tired and remain that way until you sleep again.
No wonder the last two weeks seem like a blur…I must have been incredibly difficult to be around.
Samuel
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